LiVe LiFE c00L !!

lets the pictures tell everything….

rindu mereka…

dis whole week was a very hectic and tense week to me..i face a lot of difficulties and pain!!..yes i was totally in pain!!…sumthing that i waited so long to happen finally did but it not goes as what i expected..i become worse i guess…i thought when they decided that, it will be good for me..be a relief for me after a whole year of difficulties…but the god still want to test me…aargghhh that time i really feel like to cry…and i start to blame god..why this must happen to me..why god?…but then i realized that allah xkan menguji seseorg itu melainkan dalam kemampuan hamba-nya….ak mula sedar dan beristghfar…mula mohon petunjuk dari-Nya….

dan malam esoknya…ak pegi laa semayang jemaah..after semayang jemaah…kak ana datang jmpe…and we had a very long talk….we share everything…and i expell everything…everything deep inside my heart that b4 this really burden me….we have a nice talk…and after that i feel very relief…although the problem is still there…..

so the moral of the story….expell it out!!!…for me i am the person who like to hide everything inside of me alone…it is very difficult for me to share my problems with my own best frens…what i did was only go to them and talk about sumtings else so that i can forget my problem..sumtimes they already know when i came to them…then when they asked..i just said nothing…saje je datang…nak melawat…hahhaa…..diorg pn maybe dh paham n xtanye byk…n kitorg trus borak2 n bergelak tawa…tu laa yg ak buat setahun ni…ade prob jer trus lari….

maybe ade org yg suke share prob die ngn kawan die..tp for me susah sket…esp with my close fren here…klw share pun i prefer to share it with my kaklong….mase kat qber dulu pn…kalau ade prob jer trus gi lepak bilik mizah n kaklynn without telling them why i came to them..n they said i came to eat…hahaha…tu rezeki kot…datang2 jer ade makanan…hehehe….

and one things that we always forget is allah…allah ada utk dgr prob kite…believe me…expell it out after semayang lagi best…rase lega sgt2…and one thing i learnt yesterday during usrah was: (kesimpulan based on hadis 19 dari himpunan hadith 40)

“Ingatlah allah waktu kita senang barulah allah akan ingat kita waktu kita susah…”

“Berdoalah kepada allah selalu supaya suara kita sudah biasa kedengaran dikalangan malaikat dan allah dan bukan hanya kedengaran ketika dalam kesusahan”

hope the days to come is better for me!!…insyaallah…

1) Tercipta untukku by ungu

Menatap indahnya senyuman diwajahmu

Membuatku terdiam dan terpaku

Mengerti akan hadirnya cinta terindah

Saat kau peluk tubuhku

Banyak kata yang tak mampu kuungkapkan

Kepada dirimu

Aku ingin engkau selalu

Hadir dan temani aku

Disetiap langkah yang meyakiniki

Kau tercipta untukku…sepanjang hidupku

Meski waktu akan mampu

Memanggil seluruh ragaku

Ku ingin kau tahu ku selalu milikmu

Yang mencintaimu sepanjang hidupku…

2) Takdir cinta by rossa

ku tutup mataku dari semua pandanganku

bila melihat matamu

ku yakin ada cinta

ketulusan hati yang mengulir lembut

penguasa alam tolonglah pegangi aku

biar ku tak jatuh pada sumur dosa

yang terkutuk dan menyesatkan cintaku

andaikan ku bisa lebih adil pada cinta kau dan dia

aku bukan nabi yang bisa sempurna

ku tak luput dari dosa

biarlah ku hidup seperti ini

takdir cinta harus begini ada kau dan dia

bukan ku yang mau

oh Tuhan tuntunlah hatiku

Tutup pintu…

Lalala…today I reflected myself about what had happened for the past few years…about what had happened inside of me..whether my waits are worth for me or not..and now finally I figure it out that I should stop living in my own fantasy…stop dreaming denin!!…Huhu…I now officially close the door…penat kot tunggu..so I think the time finally arrived where I should just give it up and just tutup pintu..give me strength pls god!!!….

Huhu…I bet u all don know what I mean by tutup pintu right?…hehehe…memang sengaja xnak bg korg tau pun…because it is very personal..it is so very inner of me..sorry dear…lalala……

Hari ni hari sabtu and guess what?…i had class on Saturday…cesss!!!….surgery clinical class with dr renol, a very cool surgeon I guess….everyone is fallen in love with him because he is soooo cool!!!Ape ek yg blaja ari ni?…ermm about sign n symptoms in surgery like lump,swelling and ulcers…Tak ngantuk sangat ari ni maybe sbb dr renol punye way of teaching kot…he like to interact with us and will use any one of us as the example in front of the class to make everyone of us understand what he is talking about…

“There is no such a stupid question.People who don’t understand and not asking is stupid, ”said dr renol. Betul gak kan?…Tapi tu laa malas kan nktanya although memang tak faham. Itu laaa yg selalu dibuat…hahaha…why?…jeng3..

1) 1)Malas nk elaborate soalan so that the doctor understand what I don understand

2     2)Sebab rase akan faham after reading book

3) 3)Kat lecture hall yang besar nk tanye pn lecturer susah nk dengar sampai kene ulang byk2 kali…kan dah mencapap tu

4) 4)Sebab nk balik cepat.kan kalau tanya kena marah lak kt org lain yg nk balik.

5     5)Sebab memang tak faham langsung.(ni kes kalau ngantuk gile2 time lecture,hahaha)

Malu bertanya sesat jalan…tak semestinya kot…byk lg inisiatif lain…hahaha…I think I need to build my self-confidentso that I will be able to speak up in front of others confidently.I don know why that I am very takut when something about presentation esp involving a lot of people..padahal orang lain rilek jerr…yerlaa bukan buat ape pun…cakap jer laa….hahaha…tp kalau cakap belakang2 bole plak kan….hahha…that’s is me!!!

That’s all….time to sleep!!

my only B…hehehe…B stand for brother laa…td tgk friendster die…wawawa..i`m so surprised coz now he is so berani tu put his picture with his gf…sumtimes cam xcaye that he got a girlfriend!!…very surprised for us bcos we know him..hehehe sorry abengoh…umi is the one who is very the very xpercaye…papepun congrate!!….

how we all manage to discover this hot story?..herm…thanks to ami, ido n kakteh yg mmg jadi penyiasat yg hebat…the story begin when ami secretly bace msg abgngah (i wonder if abgngah know dis)…n jeng3….n ido and kakteh start their job…they started browse abgngah nye frenster…tp xjmpe pape pun….”abgngah fs is bored,” said ido…hermm mmg bosan pn…hahaha…and a few weeks later….kakteh dgn baiknye send comment on his bro page…”congrate for being the first doc in he family” and surprisingly she got a new frens…her future sister-in-law (insyaallah laa kan)..hermm..kakteh ape lg browse laa page die n find out the truth..hahaha..ade 1 pic of them together…hahaha…and of course this gossip shud be spread out…hahahaha..and dush..we all knew it!!!….hahaha…umi and abah pn dh tau and siap interview abgngah lagi..huhu…and the conclusion is everyone is happy…me?…happy gak tp jeles laa…rase nk jugak!!…hahaha…

but now the story is different…abgngah mintak nk kawen plak dah…hahaha..dh besar rupenye my abg yg makin gemok ni…but sadly umi n abah xbagi lagi…sian kt my only B…

“am byk lg tanggungjawab kat adik2,” kate abah

“org laki kawen lewat pun xpe..kumpul duit dulu,”kate umi

“keje laa dulu br kawen,”kate kaklong

hermm…cinta terhalang oleh waktu nampaknye…tp btul gak…ilek laa dulu am…takkan nk kawen dah kot…am mcm xmatang jer lagi…ngn kitorg pn nk gaduh lagi..camne nk jadi ketua keluarga?…but i believe u will be great husband and u always be our great abgngah….so sabar laa am…just follow what umi n abah said..kalau dah jodoh tak ke mana…u are the only abah and umi son tau…tu title besar tu…sbb tu dpt jd anak kesayangan..so don dissapoint them…i will pray for the best!!!…

love everyone very the much-much!!

congratulation for being the first doc in family!

Internal medicine is better than any of the specialties. When a patient comes in for a check-up, you can send them home with a clean bill of health. And when a patient comes in with high blood pressure, you can prescribe one of a wide variety of drugs, including beta-blockers, diuretics, and ACE inhibitors. And when a patient comes in with some other problem, you will be able to refer them to one of a long list of your colleagues.